Two thumbs up....

That is how I am going to rate my experiences of the day, two thumbs up, down or one of each. Today was a two thumbs up day. I started my day with a visit from two friends. One of which is someone I consider to be truly beautiful on the inside (and out). She is someone you look at and wish you could be more like. It left me feeling rejuvenated, which I needed and it was only 11am. This afternoon I got a peek into a world that I have long forgotten how it felt to be there. Now I am older and weighed down by things that shouldn't matter nearly as much as they do. My shoulders slump a little more, my eyes don't hide the worry I wished they would. Today, I was reminded there is a world I have forgotten, that if wanted bad enough, I could infuse a bit of that unbridled joy with my world. My 3 year old daughter danced tonight. By dance, I do mean all the right foot positions and arm movements....but I also mean DANCED. The raw joy I saw in her face tonight warmed my soul. She didn't care about what others around her thought, she didn't even care if the moves she did were correct. All she cared about is that she was having the time of her life, surrounded by people who loved her, gazing at her with pride. If I could be that happy with so little. Is it really that little? Really what else is there? Shouldn't we all be having the time of our life? Shouldn't we all be overjoyed that our loved ones are around us, however strained or intact the relationship might be? I came home tonight with a high, a high that didn't last as long as I had hoped. My doubt crept back in, my worry, my sadness. I don't know why or even what exactly I am worried or sad about... but it is my constant companion. Why is it a two thumbs up day then? My soul has been fed, my heard warmed a bit more and hope feels it has a good chance.... that is a good day!